Mood Swings

I'm tired.

I should be excited, but instead, I'm groggy.

I should have packed for the weekend last night, but instead, we argued.

I should be working, but instead, I'm staring at my desk and typing this.

I have no energy, I'm getting little sleep and what I do get isn't good sleep.

I need to get 'used to' getting little to no sleep. I hope it doesn't leave me feeling like today.

We should have gotten the house ready for showings and open houses last night, but instead we argued.

I should be happy that it's Friday, I get out at noon and we have a trip planned but instead I'm looking for reasons we can't go. Which is fucked, since I want to get out.

Hopefully a cardboard cup of generic full flavor java will do the trick and eclipse the current mood I'm in.

I want to ride. I want to ride more than once a week. I need exercise, I need the adrenaline, the outlet, the scrapes and bruises, the sweat and sore muscles, the challenge. Instead, the bike collects dust, my cuts heal and my strength and stamina diminishes. I was hoping to get in shape enough to try a few races this summer. Instead, I'll try to be able to finish one race in September...I hope.

I want a re-do of Wednesday, Thursday and today. I want to get the funk out.

Instead I'll be moving my office upstairs, a promotion, to an office with no windows.

Meh.